New me, new breasts

my quest for massive boobs has begun

First of all I must apologise for not being as active with my entries as usual.

I had a show last week- thank you for those that came - and I’ve been bouncing about to and from the north and south of England. The show is about my only fans journey and I’ll be doing it again in Glasgow (21st March) and then London on the 22nd April.

In a rare and bizarre happenstance, I’ve found myself doing an acting job - and everything other than getting from A to B and making sure my kids are okay without me has gone out the window. It’s only a couple more weeks of it and so I’m trying to soak it all up as I might never work as an actress again (EVERY JOB IS SURELY MY LAST JOB).

I had forgotten what it’s like to juggle long working days with homelife, and have massive newfound respect for working mothers.

Doing this job and not really being able to write due to exhaustion (and a profound failure to multi-task) has really proven how important writing is to me. I’ve barely written in my diary and I realised that when I’m not with the kids, I don’t really remember anything about the day. It’s like nothing I do on my own is noteworthy. I will endeavour to change that.

My inability to focus on myself probably comes down to ingrained self-loathing and a constant need to divert pain into something sweet. But no more of that shit!!! I want to hold myself to account this year and really question my own motives.

So…. this post is about my forthcoming boob job.

As it’s a big deal for me, it’s behind a paywall. I will resume my only fans diary entries in the next few days too. :)

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